I confess...

I took Ms. Brown Suga to dinner last night. She chose the "Old Crazies Buffet". I normally go wherever she wants for her company and not so much for the food. Hooters for wings, Buffet for mushed potatoes and gravy, Casino for seafood. We do have weird cravings. We are both emotional eaters. We don't just eat because we are emotional, but we get together because we are emotional and then we meet up at a restaurant! Not exactly healthy or even great food, just our "usual".

Last night I was actually scared of the people at the Buffet. It was extremely crowded!!! It's usually kinda dead and we can talk and laugh as loud as we want and do whatever and no one really cares. We just merrily hide out!

Let me say it again because I don't know what was wrong with me! Last night, I was actually scared of the people at the Buffet. I was looking around, doing my usual, people watching. Here are a few observations I made about other diners around us.

A lady in line told me it was "Pay Day" when I commented to Suga how crowded it was. Who's getting paid on this Pay Day exactly and how come we weren't included?

A large family had 4 women. The couple I thought was the mother and father of an infant was actually the grandparents. "Grandma, Baby has a gift for you!" Wait, who's the mom?

Same group of women all looked like the dead. I don't know any drug addicts. Do they look pale with ginormous dark circles and luggage under their eyes? How about really gaunt faces, big heads, little bodies? Or maybe little bodies and big heads? I just know something was off with all of them.

Same group of people. "Grandpa" was using his pinkie to dip frosting or something like it to feed the screaming infant. Aren't babies that can't even hold up their own heads suppose to be on a milk/formula diet???

Last question about this family, I promise. They had on dirty clothes, or at least badly stained clothes... how can they afford to pay for the entire family to eat at the buffet (Grandpa, 4 women, 2 girls, a boy, and a baby) and not be able to afford to do their laundry or buy clean clothes??? I won't even say new, just clean? Oh, I did see Grandpa repeatedly wipe the "frosting" on his pants. Maybe they just got that dirty at the buffet?

Another family. Mom was a very large woman, 300 plus? Nothing wrong with that observation. I have an anorexic sister and that's just the other end of the spectrum. I just want to know why her toddler has to keep asking for more food and mom is just saying, "Baby, just wait until Mama goes up again, OK?" What? Oh, and why didn't anyone else in the family see there's something wrong with this?

One man was looking at every woman besides the one he came with. Why didn't he just come alone, not that it was really a "bar" or "club" or...

Too many people had their bluetooth attached to their heads. What important million dollar business transaction can you not miss at this hour?

A man was standing to the side of the buffet line eating. Is a table really too far away for you?

A child is rolling around on the ground under their table. Is that really a good idea at peak hour in a buffet restaurant?

Wayyy tooo much to type out.

I do have to ask, "What is wrong with Me?"

It's back to the "judge a book by it's cover", "label" and "file". I can only immagine what they all thought of me!

I usually don't let other people's behavior or lifestyle bother me, but last night, I was getting sooo irritated with stuff going on around us. Suga actually laughed and said that we were trying too hard to be polite and not stare at the craziness.

I'm really not sure I can do another night at the "Old Crazies Buffet". I know it was my choice and no one dragged me or forced me. I just don't think I can choose it again after last night.

What is wrong with Me? I'm usually joking around, laughing, not bothering anyone, not letting anyone bother me...last night, I just felt like I was being really judgemental and mean for thinking the things I did!

So, I confess.

What now? I'm not Catholic so I don't really know if this really works without the church and priest and all??? I have covered the being contrite and confessing portion. What about the penance and amends part?

Someone should at least tell me that I was being a really big Bitch!